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FATHER’S DAY
Written by: James M.
Russell
Copyright 2015© James
M. Russell
CHAPTER 1:
Earl Timmins sat
in the darkened room lit only by the flickering light from an ancient movie
projector. His middle-aged body nestled comfortably into a thickly padded easy
chair that, over the years, had grown to conform to his shifting angles and
bulges.
On one wall of the
room was a hand-made bookcase, its shelves choked with the memorabilia that a
family accumulates in a lifetime of living and loving.
Earl heard his
voice call out from the depths of a Super 8 sound track.
“Ian, hold the
bag open. Here come the leaves.”
Father and son
laughed. Earl, with the gusto of a loving father, and Ian, with the exhausting
effervescence of a six-year-old.
“Daddy! you
missed!”
Earl smiled,
sending lines of joy through his soft, round face. He watched the movie with
rapt attention while reciting every word of the soundtrack. In several places,
he whispered the words even before he or Ian spoke them.
CHAPTER 2:
Wanda Timmins
glided into the room wearing a paisley house dress that contrasted sharply with
her faded pink slippers, whose once vibrant color had surrendered to the
ravages of detergent and warm water and now merely whispered their former
annoying hue. At fifty-five, she was a year younger, and more than a foot
shorter than Earl, but nearly equaled him in girth. The gaudy lunch tray she
carried was the flimsy sort, easily purchased at Wal-Mart for a song. Its red
border was chipped and faded, its white stripes, gray with age. She set the
tray in front of Earl and waited impatiently. Wanda had never been a
good-looking woman, her cheekbones were too flat, her forehead was too high,
and her eyes were set far into her head, like those of an owl. But Wanda had a
lovely smile. And when she glanced at the tattered projection screen that smile
swept across her face and lingered several seconds before being pushed aside by
a look of dogged determination.
“Earl, the doctor said you have to eat a
healthy breakfast – this morning and every morning!” she said after snatching
up the spoon and thrusting it into his hand.
And although
Earl remained in the moment of cinematic illusion, he managed a reply in the
hopes of placating his wife, “Thanks, Babes.”
After
thirty-seven years of marriage, Wanda knew not to nag. She also knew that the
odds of Earl having touched his breakfast by the time she returned in ten
minutes¬¬ -- her first scheduled follow- up -- were fifty-fifty. To her
knowledge, her husband had never gotten excited about food in his life,
although he did love Wine Gums.
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Wanda met Earl
at Mellow’s Candy and Confectionary Boutique, located on the southwest corner
of Elm and Torrance. They tore it down years ago, but when she closed her eyes,
she could see the place just as clear as day. Mr. Mellow was a rotund man who
the kids used to call Humpty Dumpy, and although Wanda always thought that was
mean, to be honest, he did kind of look like Humpty; he even wore a bow tie.
The Sunday Earl
and Wanda met; Mr. Mellow was wearing the blue, shiny tie with the green
seahorses that seemed to move if you stared at the tie too long. Earl was
eighteen, Wanda, a year younger. Both were in their senior year at Torrance
High School.
It was Wanda who
spotted Earl. He was too busy staring in wonder at Mr. Mellow’s brand new,
shiny chrome, motorized toffee-pulling machine.
“You talk to him
first,” her friend Catherine said while struggling to remain calm. But Wanda
was aware that Catherine was fed up with her current boyfriend and actively
shopping for a suitable replacement and, therefore, had no intention of acting
as her friend’s romance broker.
“Why me?”
“I'm shy.”
“Since when?”
“Wa!” Catherine
said only because she knew Wanda hated that nickname. “You owe me.”
It had been more than six months since
Catherine had done Wanda the questionable favor of introducing her to Simon
Winchester, a good-looking guy in their botany class. Simon had it all: great
smile, sharp dresser, his own car, and, Wanda later discovered, a rich fiancée
at the University of Boston. Wanda was sure that Catherine had known about the
fiancée, but she pretended she didn't. Nevertheless, technically, Wanda did owe
her, a debt that Catherine reminded her of at least once a day.
“All right,”
Wanda sighed, “but this makes us even.”
Earl's eyes were
so fixed on the belts and gears that gave a dizzy, dancing life to the metal arms
that pulled and twisted the gooey, white toffee that he didn’t even notice
Wanda approach him. In fact, he didn't even notice her standing there, not more
than two feet away, until Wanda finally said, “It’s powered by a two amp motor
with a five-to-one gear ratio.” It wasn’t the best pick-up line, but it was all
that she could think of at the time. Wanda had no idea what an amp or gear
ratio was, she was just repeating something she had overheard Mr. Mellow
telling a customer a few days ago.
Earl turned
toward Wanda and replied with a sparkle in his eye, “No kidding?” And that was
that. Earl and Wanda dated for nearly a year before being married, on an
overcast June day, at the First Baptist Church. All their friends attended, all
except Catherine, who after that afternoon in the candy store, never spoke to
Wanda again.
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Earl stared at
his breakfast tray with indifference then suddenly smiled with a radiance that
lit up his face brighter than the flickering reflecting off the movie screen.
“Babes, you
remember when Ian helped Mrs. Foster refinish that old dresser of hers? How
much did she give him? Twenty-five bucks?”
“Yes,” she said
softly at she too stared at the screen.
Earl turned
toward Wanda and immediately recognized the same sparkle he fell in love with
on that Sunday afternoon in Mr. Mellow’s candy store.
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Two weeks before
Earl Timmins formally met Wanda Epson, Earl had made the mistake of giving
Wanda more than a passing glance at lunchtime. It was a typical stuffy May day
and Wanda, that same sparkle in her eye, was playing softball with a bunch of
friends near the north end of the barren, outdoor enclosure behind Torrance
High School. Harvey Simmons, who everybody called ‘Cinnamon,' caught Earl
looking at Wanda. And, loudmouth that he was, he told Jerry Lamport, who told
Sammy Pape, and then the news just took off, racing across the sun-baked
asphalt playground faster than a summer lightning bolt.
Wanda pretended
not to care when the news finally reached her ten or so minutes later.
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“An' remember he
told her that he couldn't accept it because she was our neighbor and neighbors
helped each other out? You think she still has that ole dresser Babes?”
“I don't know
Earl, I really don’t.”
“Jesus, I was
proud of him. You know. When he told her that.”
“Me too.
Remember? I made him a pie.”
Earl and Wanda
fell silent, both lost in the moving images before them. It was Wanda who first
returned to earth.
“Earl! Eat your
breakfast!”
Earl never
removed his eyes from the screen as he reached down and grasped the chrome
spoon, plunged it into the Cream of Wheat, retrieved a half spoonful, then
swallowed it joylessly. “Excellent porridge, thanks, Babes. Call me at eight.
Will ya? I wanna vacuum out the car before we go pick up Ian.”
Wanda pointed
toward Earl's tray,
“The toast too.
It’s seven grain, just like Dr. Wong said.”
Then she turned,
walked to the door and paused. Earl, feeling her eyes on him, ladled another
spoonful of the beige-colored cereal into this mouth and swallowed. Satisfied,
for now, Wanda turned and exited as silently as she entered and although
neither Earl nor anyone else living watched her journey, there was one
spectator, a wooden cuckoo.
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The cuckoo
clock, made of pine but stained to look like mahogany, hung on the southwest
wall of the Timmins’s foyer. The clock was a wedding present, and it worked
fine for the first nine years or so, announcing the arrival of each hour with
sudden cheeriness and keeping pretty good time. Neither Earl nor Wanda could
remember when it stopped working, but it must have been around the time that
Ian was born. One day, soon after that, Earl glanced at the clock and noticed
that the cuckoo stood immobile.
For years, the
wooden bird had announced the hour with a pleasant ‘cuckoo’, pausing briefly in
its arched doorway before retreating smoothly into the clock’s innards. Alas,
cuckoo hadn’t been home since a miscommunication between its gears and pulleys
left her stranded. But her immobility had an upside, from her lofty perch, the
cuckoo had an uninterrupted view of the foyer, and, therefore, the comings and
goings of the Timmins family.
The cuckoo had
watched Ian grow up and Earl and Wanda grow old.
As Wanda breezed
past the cuckoo clock, she made a mental note to ask Earl to take it to the
shop to be fixed, one of many similar requests she made over the years that for
some reason or the other, he had never gotten around to.
Earl waited
until he heard Wanda enter the kitchen, then quietly set his spoon beside the
bowl and turned his attention to the movie screen.
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Earl and his son
Ian, a skinny three-year-old with a whack of dark brown hair topping his
denim-clad frame, are both grasping the varnished handle of a gleaming
lawnmower. Ian is tucked in below his father as they push the mower. Green
grass cuttings stream from the whirling blades. Earl glances mischievously at
the camera then releases the handle, shifting the entire load to Ian. The
lawnmower coasts to a stop, but Ian continues pushing, his feet pawing at the
grass as if he were on a treadmill. On the screen, Earl’s laughter ends with a
badly executed film splice.
Now Wanda,
wearing the same paisley housedress, only it’s new in the film, stands at the
kitchen sink with Ian, who is a year older. Ian hands a freshly washed dinner
plate to his mother. In mid-handoff, both turn toward the camera and smile. Ian
dips his hand into the soapy pool and flicks some water onto his mother. She
recoils, then smiles mischievously and responds in kind.
Earl laughs, off-screen,
just before the soundtrack pops.
In the next
scene, Ian is now five years old. Perched atop his head is his father’s yellow
hardhat. Both Ian and Earl sit on a pile of freshly milled two-by-fours. Behind
them is a sun-bleached panorama of partially completed, two-storey homes.
Father and son have their arms around each other as they mug for the
photographer.
“Sing
something.” Wanda urges from behind the camera.
Earl reaches
into his battered, gray metal toolbox, hands Ian one of his hammers then grabs
a crosscut saw and thrusts it into the air.
Earl starts them
rocking side to side and then they both burst out singing, “Hi Ho, Hi Ho.”
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Earl was shocked
by the sound, not because it was loud or alarming but because it was so novel.
The Timmins’s front door bell hardly ever rang. Not that there was a problem
with the circuitry, Earl being almost as adept with electronics as he was with
wood. No, the Timmins’s door rang infrequently because, well, because nobody
rang it, except the PG&E man to read the meter, or the Postie when she had
an exceptionally large bundle of mail, typically bills and advertisements, that
wouldn’t fit through the door slot.
It’s been years
since any of the neighbors wanted to borrow a rake or hammer, and just as long
since friends visited.
The Baxters
moved to San Diego.
Beth and John
Lampton, both high school teachers, took early retirement and became, in their
words, modern-day vagabonds, going from one cruise to another, one buffet to
another, one exotic destination to another.
Earl missed the
company of Julie and Ken Cameron most. They used to come over nearly every
weekend to play cards, then, without a word of warning, they just stopped. Earl
called a couple times, Wanda too, and left messages on their machine, neither
Julie nor Ken returned their calls. A first Earl was worried that something
terrible had happened. Car crash or terminal disease but about six months after
Julie and Ken ceased communication, Earl saw both of them, happy and healthy,
sitting at one of the tables outside the Coffee and Company at Pico and
Washington.
Wanda insisted that it must have been
something she or Earl said to the couple that got them upset, but Earl wasn’t
so sure. He and Ken had known each other for years. Friends don’t just up and
stop being friends without saying why.
He knew that
Julie and Ian weren’t close. Earl even got the feeling that she would avoid
being around him whenever possible, but that was just a feeling. After all, Ken
and Julie had two boys and a girl of their own so there was no reason for
either of them to be uncomfortable around kids.
The bell had
ringed once again before Wanda answered the door.
Earl recognized
the voice immediately.
“Morning Mrs.
Timmins.”
“Morning,
Leonus. No. Ian’s not home yet. We’re picking him up this afternoon. Aren’t you
supposed to be in school?
“Teacher
education day. Guess I’ll come back after dinner.”
“Tomorrow would
be better."
“OK. Tomorrow
then. Bye, Mrs. Timmins.”
“Bye. Leonus.”
Wanda re-entered
the family room at a leisurely pace.
Earl spoke
without taking his eyes from the screen. “Don’t you think Leonus kind of
resembles Ian when he was that age?”
“I guess. A
little. Seems like our Ian was only twelve years old for about three or four
months.”
“Kids certainly
do seem to grow up fast these days.”
“Leonus is a
good kid.”
“He is, Babes.”
“And he sure
loves Ian.”
“Lots to love.
Now finish that toast Earl Timmins, before it turns to ice!”
Earl picked up
his last slice, took a small bite and was about to take another when the film
soundtrack popped and a flash of white light on the screen signaled the
beginning of the footage they shot at the Hodges cabin when Ian was nine.
A smiling Earl,
Wanda, and Ian are standing in the dead centre of the movie screen. Before them
is a roaring campfire, its bright orange flames licking toward the black sky.
Behind the happy threesome is a one-storey, rustic cabin, its front partially
obscured by the large shadows cast by the Timmins family. Above the
fire-engine-red cabin door is a brightly varnished sign made from a tree
section, the rough bark still attached. The cursive letters, flowing gently
through the wood face, read, Hodges Cabin.
Earl notices
that Ian has begun staring at the campfire. Placing his right hand atop his
son’s head, Earl gently turns Ian’s head so that he is again looking at the
camera lens. But the whirling Kodak cannot compete with the magnetic lure of
the flame and Ian’s eyes drift back into the depths of the crackling fire.
Slowly at first,
then ever more quickly, the whole image begins to tilt as one leg of the tripod
sinks into the soft ground. Earl runs to catch the camera, his two arms
stretched out, his fingers splayed.
The soundtrack
pops and the projector lens blinks once again.
Ian is now
eleven. Still thin and gangly, his hair is much shorter, but it is not the
extreme cut that marks the young man; it is the severity in his eyes as he
walks, ‘gunslinger’ style down the driveway of their home.
From somewhere outside the
camera’s field of view, Earl laughs then shouts, “Clint Eastwood!”
Ian stops, retraces his
steps, then begins again, this time, rocking back and forth and twirling an
imaginary cane.
“Charlie Chaplin! ” Earl
shouts through his laughter and from somewhere outside the camera’s eye he
begins to applaud as Ian, proud of his performance, walks the rest of the
distance to the camera with a cocky stride entirely his own.
CHAPTER 3:
The
electronically controlled lock had issued a ‘thunk’ before the heavy metal door
began to swing open at a sinister pace. Ian, walking with the same cocky
stride, stepped through the massive frame while sandwiched between two
thick-necked guards.
Ian was no
longer that fresh-faced kid in the movies for now his chin and upper lip bore
patches of black stubble.
His once closely
cropped hair hung in greasy strands down to his shoulders.
His muscles
rippled under the tapestry of monochrome tattoos that covered his arms and
crept up his neck.
His innocence,
once so bright and shiny, had been vanquished by a darkness that sucked up his
life-light like a black hole.
Ian was dressed in bright orange prison
overalls while his jailers, a humorless pair of accidental civil servants, were
clad in impeccable khaki uniforms with razor-sharp creases.
Correctional
Officer Henry Dane glanced back at Ian as they walked down the institutional
grey corridor. “Big fuckin' day... eh, Timmins?”
Ian and Officer
Dane engaged in an impromptu staring contest until the Officer was forced to
avert his gaze and open yet another door, this time with a swipe of the ID card
dangling from his neck. Dane waited for the ‘thunk,’ then pushed open the door
and stepped into yet another hallway, this one wider and higher, and painted a
pleasant baby blue. Ian had already shifted his weight and lifted his right
foot to step forward when Correctional Officer Frederick Worthington gave Ian a
hard shove from behind. Ian smiled. And although it was the same smile he had
in those grainy home movies, his eyes had retained none of their former
sparkle. Instead, each eye more resembled the entrance to some Third World coal
mine.
Dark and dank
and filled with death and human desperation.
They now stood
in a joyless twelve-by-twelve room the floor and walls of which were bare but
for a single locker room bench and a half-dozen identical clothes hooks, which,
judging by the sloppy nature of their installation, were likely mounted on the
wall by a trained chimpanzee.
A cheap,
business-blue suit hung from one of those hooks, a white, short sleeve shirt,
and a paisley tie from another. Positioned, as per regulations, at the precise
end of one of the locker room benches was a pair of new, black oxford shoes, a
product of the prison’s leather shop.
“OK Timmins, you
know the drill,” Officer Dane said in an emotionless tone as he pulled a pair
of white rubber gloves from his pocket.
Ian kicked off
his prison-issued athletic shoes then unzipped the front of his overalls. He
slipped his arms out of the sleeves and let his overalls fall to the ground.
Worthington
smiled when he noticed the purple and green, dinner plate sized bruise on Ian's
back.
"Looks like
somebody gave you a little love tap as a going away present."
Worthington then
pulled out his regulation baton and slapped it once in the palm of his fleshy
hand.
"Like me to
give you another on the other side? Then you'd have a matching pair.”
"Wish I
could say the same thing about your mother’s tits.”
Officer
Worthington charged toward Ian, and if it weren’t for that pending internal
investigation hanging over his head, Officer Dane probably would have let his
partner work over that asshole, Timmins. But on that day Officer Dane was all
business.
"Step, lift
and open!"
Ian stepped out
of his pant legs and lifted his arms ninety degrees to his side and parallel to
the ground, his mouth wide open. Dane pulled on his gloves with the skill of a
surgeon then lifted his black Magnalite from its frayed nylon belt holster and
shone it into Ian's mouth, taking care to check the sides and especially the
roof – frequently a prisoner's favorite place for hiding drugs and razors.
“Lift!” Dane
commanded and Ian immediately raised his tongue to the roof of his mouth.
“Close!” He said
then reached out and felt under Ian's arm, before checking under his penis and
scrotum. After looking between Ian’s toes, Officer Dane stood and took half a
step backward.
“OK, Timmins.
Spread 'em.”
Ian turned,
spread his legs, bent over, and pulled his buttocks open with his hands.
“Not nearly as
tight as it was when you first arrived, Timmins; guess you've taken a few, eh?”
Ian did not
reply. Why should he? Nor did he flinch as Officer Dane abruptly shoved his
index finger up Ian’s rectum, moved it left then right then withdrew it,
ripping off his soiled gloves and tossing them into the red trash bin marked
‘Bio-hazardous Waste’.
As per
regulations, Officer Worthington then jerked a clear plastic garbage bag from
his back pocket, opened it wide, held it at arm’s length, and waited. Ian
gathered up his prison overalls and shoes and tossed them into the bag then
reached back in and retrieved a pack of cigarettes. Danes snatched the
cigarettes from Ian’s hand, inspected the pack, then handed it back to him.
“An officer will
come to get you when it's time. Good luck Timmins.”
Officer Dane
waited a moment for a response then jerked open the door and marched out into
the hallway.
Officer
Worthington followed then said over his shoulder as he passed through the open
doorway. “Timmins, do us all a favour sport, stay outta trouble for at least a
month or so; our fire extinguishers need a fuckin' rest.”
Ian smirked then
lit a cigarette and began dressing.
CHAPTER 4:
Earl was
standing by the passenger door, tugging at the collar of his dress shirt, when
he noticed an oval shaped watermark on the chrome door molding of their royal
blue and midnight black 1985 Mercury Grand Marquis. Earl rubbed the spot twice,
once with a corner of his chamois and again with that special lamb’s wool mitt
he bought at Manny and Moe’s auto supply two years ago. Earl wondered how, on such
a bright, cloudless day he could have missed the blemish then remembered that
he was getting old and resigned himself to the reality that his eyesight wasn’t
what it used to be.
In a moment,
Earl allowed his gloved hand to fall limp to his side and stepped back to
admire his work.
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Earl had
purchased the lamb’s wool mitt during a service appointment.
There was
nothing wrong mechanically with ‘Ole Grand’, as he called the vintage Mercury;
it was just the six-month oil change, a routine that he and Ole Grand had stuck
to since day one pretty well.
Earl had been
sitting in the service area waiting room for less than fifteen minutes before
he grew tired of watching the silly game show blasting from the small
television hanging from the ceiling in the far corner of the cramped room. So,
Earl lifted his sore butt out of his chair, walked past the three other seated
customers, and stopped in front of the magazine rack. Earl looked over the
selection and quickly realized that he had read all but two of them on previous
visits, a year old edition of Golfing Today, which didn't interest him in the
least, and a dog-eared copy of Sports Illustrated, which he noticed was only
two months old but in worse shape than the National Geographic from three years
ago. Still, the Sports Illustrated was the swimsuit edition so that might have
explained it.
Earl jerked the
Sports Illustrated from the rack and sat back down in his still-warm chair. He
must have flipped through the entire magazine in less than a minute, pausing
only once or twice to wonder whether there were really women that looked that
good or if it was just computer trickery. When he reached the last page, Earl
set the swimsuit edition on the empty chair next to him, glanced at the game
show, which had grow even sillier, then stood again and headed straight toward
the door that led to the high ceiling store with its rows of rows of everything
auto.
He was strolling
down the ‘washing and wax’ aisle when his aging eyes were assaulted by a bright
orange cardboard sign in the shape of a star. The neat letters formed the words
‘Special Purchase’. And at $4.99 it seemed like a reasonable price for
something made from wool that came all the way from Australia, or possibly New
Zealand.
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Earl loosened
his tie just a fraction then gave his collar one last tug. A quick twist of his
head confirmed that he had at least removed one major annoyance, now if he
could only stop his tweed jacket from itching, his khaki pants from digging
into his crotch, and the stiff, brown Oxfords, that Wanda bought him especially
for this occasion, from grinding the skin off his big toe.
Earl had just
begun looking for other watermarks that he might have missed on Ole Grand when
Wanda opened the front door and stepped out into the morning sun. Jesus, she
looked good, he thought to himself. Earl was surprised that his wife had
decided to wear that red floral dress she bought on sale last fall at Sears and
Roebucks. She had rushed home that afternoon all excited, then spent the next
hour in the bedroom with the door closed. Finally, she called Earl upstairs.
“Well, how does
it look?”
“Good.”
“Just good? Not
fabulous or terrific or sexy?”
“Isn't good,
good enough?” Earl said, but the look on her face told him that it wasn't. Wanda
said that she was going to return it and he thought she had, but there she was,
wearing it today.
“You look
fabulous Babes,” Earl gushed and Wanda broke into laughter. “What'd I say?”
“Who always
says, 'Never use a ten dollar word when a fifty cent word will do?’” she
replied, and they both smiled.
Earl opened the
car door for Wanda and she sat lightly into the passenger seat, trying not to
wrinkle her dress.
“Thank you kind
sir.”
“You're welcome
young lady.”
Earl hurried
around to the driver's side, sat then reached up to the visor and pressed the
garage door remote. The motor groaned in pain before the door lurched down,
plunging the garage into darkness. When the door traveled about midway to the
ground Earl noticed Ian's roller skates hanging from a nail on the back wall.
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Santa Claus gave
Ian those skates for Christmas. They were, in fact, number one on their son’s
wish list. Ian tried skating once, fell, then stood, and fell again. That was
the last time he wore the skates. Neither Earl nor Wanda was surprised; Ian was
never the athletic type.
Less than two
weeks into the new year, Earl spotted Ian skates in the next-door neighbor’s
trashcan. He considered leaving
them there, but it seemed such a waste of a pair of hardly used skates, so he
fished them out and hung them from a nail in the garage. It is from that metal
projection that they have dangled for more than ten years.
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The garage door
slammed to the ground, then fell silent.
Earl inserted
the key carefully into the ignition, started up Ole Grand then turned to Wanda
and smiled.
“Let's go get
our son.”
And Wanda
beamed.
“Yes, let's just
do that.”
CHAPTER 5:
Moslow State Prison is California’s second oldest inmate facility. The
location was selected because of an unlimited amount of native stone, which was
used to build the prison. In addition, the American River offered both an ample
supply of water and formed a natural boundary. Moslow received its first
inmates, forty-four sorry souls transferred from San Quentin, on July 26, 1880.
At last count, Moslow Prison housed 3,579 prisoners. The inmate programs
include auto body, auto mechanics, electronics, graphic arts, janitorial,
landscape gardening, masonry, mill and cabinet, office services, printing, and
shoe repair. The administration is especially proud of their license plate
factory.
Johnny Cash once sang his now famous “Moslow Prison Blues” song there in
a live concert. Admission was free, the audience was not.
It was nearly four in the afternoon when Ole Grand pulled off Moslow
Boulevard onto Natoma Street for the last leg of Earl and Wanda’s journey. It
had been a grueling seven-hour drive from Torrance. Up Highway 5 to Sacramento,
then east on 50 another twenty-five miles to the prison.
Earl pulled Ole Grand to a stop close but not too close to the stodgy
gatehouse. Corrections Support Officer Cyrus Henning, a middle-aged man
exhausted by a dumb job and an ex-wife from hell, glanced up from his paper
work then returned to line thirty-five of his income tax statement.
Earl cleared his throat, hoping to get Cyrus’s attention but couldn’t
compete with Cyrus's need to reduce his taxable income by at least another
eight thousand dollars. After an acceptable period of disregard, Cyrus finally
set down his well-chewed pencil, snatched up his clipboard and wandered out
through the open door of his concrete-block gatehouse.
Earl renewed his smile.
“Good afternoon. My name is Earl Timmins, this is my wife, Wanda. We’ve
been here before, to visit, but we usually go to the other entrance, never been
to this side before. Anyway, we're here to pick up our son Ian. Ian Timmins.
That’s Ian with an I, Timmins, double m.”
“Just a minute,” Cyrus mumbled before retracing his steps back into the
gatehouse where he began flipping through the pages of an orange, three-ring binder
sitting with a half dozen others on a short wooden shelf.
Earl waited and watched until he could bear it no longer.
“Ian's been here for nearly four years. You'd think they'd know who he is
by now,” he muttered.
“Don’t get your pressure up Earl, they'll find his name. I think it's
just...”
Cyrus slammed his orange binder shut, shoved it back on the shelf, then
pressed the wall-mounted button that raised the gate marked Stop and Report in
fluorescent orange letters.
“First parking lot on the left. You're going to that white building
straight ahead. Enter through the door marked Reception.”
“Thanks,” Earl muttered before he slipped Ole Grand into gear and gave
her gas. Their spotless chariot lurched over the metal spike trap and then
rumbled into the prison parking lot.
CHAPTER 6:
Perhaps Earl and Wanda were expecting something that resembled a doctor's
waiting room or hotel lobby, but whatever they had envisioned did not prepare
them for the chaos and noise that slapped them in the face when they walked
into the reception area.
Earl stood stunned, not believing his eyes and ears, while Wanda took a
more practical approach and began leading Earl through the maze of unruly
children, grungy furniture, and litter to the far end of the room. There they
sat on two vacant, padded chairs, sandwiched between a dozing black man who,
judging by the various shades and hues of latex smears and specks that
blanketed his skin and overalls, must have been a house painter. Beside him was
a morbidly obese woman who, in spite of being close to mandatory retirement
age, continued to dress like a twenty-year-old streetwalker.
The carpetless reception room had no windows, no potted plants, no TV, no
play area for the children. The solid expanse of off-white walls was only
broken by a single, weighty metal door located five feet from where Ian’s
parents had found seating.
Neither Earl nor Wanda spoke, not that they would have been able to carry
on a conversation over the din of raised voices, tubercular coughing, and
children's screams.
Earl continued to scan the room with disbelief while Wanda fixed her eyes
straight ahead. A black woman, about Wanda's age, and sitting with a scholarly
looking man dressed in a blue business suit, caught Wanda's eye and smiled
pleasantly. Wanda was about to return the woman's smile but, instead, she
jumped with fright when an unseen bureaucrat’s voice shot through the air.
“Mr. and Mrs. Timmins! Door number three!”
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John Fuller’s full title was Paroled Inmate Counselor, but the prisoners
called them PICs for short, although the vulgar sometimes inserted an r as the
second letter. John, and PICs like him, ensure that the soon-to-be-released
inmates, their families, and loved ones fully understand the terms and
conditions of the inmate’s parole contract. They used to call them ‘agreements’
but some social psychologist decided that the word ‘contract’ implied a greater
level of commitment and therefore inmates were more likely to adhere to its
requirements. That was three years ago and the stats had yet to support that
theory. Fuller’s job was to go over each contract, word by word, line by line,
sentence by sentence with his contractual partners or CPs – as the
soon-to-be-released inmates were called. Then have them sign on the dotted
line.
He did the same
with the inmate’s ‘support givers’ or SGs immediately previous to the CP’s
release.
Of course, the job was stressful, but it had its perks. Nine to five,
decent pay, no weekends or overtime and the prison was only a thirty-minute
drive from the two-bedroom condo he and his wife had purchased on the outskirts
of Sacramento.
Everyone of Moslow’s six full-time PICs had some coping mechanism.
Sanderson bit his fingernails. Williams beat his wife. Adams, Browning, and
Singleton took refuge in the bottle.
John was cursed by nightmares, typically involving his long dead mother.
He used to have them every night but since he started having regular sessions
with Dr. Wang, the nightmares were less frequent and less frightening.
“The mental manifestation of your mother represents your abhorrence of
the crimes your contractual partners have committed. You must learn to focus on
your partners as the individuals they are, not on the crime they committed,”
Dr. Wang told John on more than one occasion.
“…on the individual, not their crime… on the individual, not their
crime..” John took to repeating
aloud three times on his way to work, thrice at lunch, and at least once before
bed.
The doctor was right of course, but that didn’t make coping any easier.
But how could he? How could he get past the fact that the majority of the
miscreants sitting on the other side of John’s desk had committed monstrous
acts?
Murder, manslaughter, rape, child abuse, robbery with violence, and the
like.
Individuals!
His clients were individuals only in name. Collectively they shared a
depravity that turned John’s stomach.
“Focus on the individual!”
If John had his way, he would like to focus his rifle sights on each of
those ‘individuals’ just before he put a hole through their foreheads.
But he couldn’t. His job was to read the words on the parole contract and
collect the requisite signature. Nothing more, nothing less. And that he had
done yesterday at 0800 when inmate #908CJ54 visited his office. And John Fuller
resolved to exhibit that same detached professionalism during his ‘Engagement
Interview’ with SGs Earl and Wanda Timmins, who had just stepped into his
office.
As John often noticed with first-timers, the SGs had not only entered his
office cautiously, but appeared bewildered, a state that John accepted as being
a perfectly normal reaction for normal people who had just been subjected to
the cesspool of humanity packed into that twenty by twenty room some of the
other PICs often refer to as ‘the Cabinet of Caligari’ .
But even as first-timers, these CPs were different. For one thing, he and
she looked like stalwart individuals: clothes clean, not torn, Mr. Timmins in a
jacket and tie -- rarely seen at Moslow. Mrs. Timmins wearing a tasteful summer
dress, not garish in color or cut but gay and sunny.
It was because John felt a little sorry for Mr. and Mrs. Timmins that he
attempted to allay their anxiety with a joke, an unprofessional frivolity that
he rarely allowed himself.
“Come in. Come in. I don’t bite.”
Earl and Wanda smiled uneasily.
“Mr. and Mrs. Timmins?”
Earl recovered first, “Yes.”
“John Fuller, please have a seat.”
Earl and Wanda had just sat in two of his four straight back chairs when
John pressed the button mounted on the underside of his desk and the Inmate
Waiting Room door swung open. John watched as the couple’s faces lit up,
seemingly with a combination of joy and relief, as Inmate #908CJ54 stepped into
the room wearing his standard issue suit and shoes. John noted with
satisfaction that at least the inmate had put on his tie, although it hung
slack, his top button undone.
“Oh, Ian!”
Based on his years on the job, John had a pretty good idea how Inmate
#908CJ54’s reply, although the inmate’s exaggerated emotionalism caught him by
surprise.
“Mom! Oh, Mom! Dad!
“Ian baby!”
“Mom! Dad!”
“Son!”
The three Timmins family members formed a joyous knot held together by
simultaneous hugs and kisses and an outpouring of love and affection. Any
civilian would have been touched by such a display of seemingly genuine
emotion, but John Fuller was a seasoned officer of the California Correctional
Services. If he felt anything it was pity for the parents of Inmate #908CJ54
and perhaps a momentary surge of rage that grew from the fact that the parents
of the man incinerated by #908CJ54 will never have a tearful reunion with their
son, except perhaps in Heaven.
Watching the joyful anguish on the faces of Mr. and Mrs. Timmins, John
tried to project himself into their minds but the best he could manage was
empathy, not understanding. Thirty-eight year old John Fuller and his
forty-one-year-old wife Marion have no children, mainly due to a combination of
his low sperm count and her minor plumbing problems. Not that they have tried
that hard since he took to sleeping alone in the second bedroom.
The nightmares and the resultant talking and shouting and thrashing about
were keeping her awake.
It was probably for the best.
Having no kids meant that there was zero chance that any child of theirs
would turn out like Inmate #908CJ54 or worse, end up as one of his victims.
John waited patiently for
the three Timmins members to disengage and sit in their respective chairs
before opening the top flap of the green file folder and beginning the ‘inmate
disengagement’ paperwork.
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His father was on his right. His mother on his left as Ian stepped
through the automatic doors that finally led to freedom. The exact moment that the low-lying
afternoon sun hit his face Inmate #908CJ54 vowed that the California Department
of Corrections would never get its hands on Ian Timmins again.
He was correct.
CHAPTER 7:
Ian sat in the back seat of Ole Grand with the rear passenger window open
and the wind blowing in his face as he took in his new surroundings. Earl
drove, as always, at or slightly below the speed limit and, like Wanda, didn't
really know what to say.
“Guess you're happy to get out of that place.”
“I most certainly am.” He replied in the most proper diction he could
muster.
Just then Earl slowed Ole Grand to a stop, signaled a left turn with his
arm and proceeded into the intersection.
“Turn signals broke or you just dryin’ your nails?”
Earl and Wanda laughed a bit too hard, Ian not at all.
“Probably just a fuse. Signals worked fine this morning,” Earl said.
“Jesus Dad, how come you’re still driving this heap?”
“Can't afford a new one. Besides Ole Grand's ‘family’.”
Ian slid to the passenger side of the back seat, directly behind his
mother, and where his father couldn’t see him in the rear view mirror then
whipped off his prison-issued neck tie and tossed it out the window while
silently mimicking his father's words with disdain.
They had just turned onto the highway when Earl glanced to the side and
noticed Wanda, a smile affixed to her face, staring, glassy-eyed, out the
window. To be honest, he was a bit teary as well, must have been the dry,
desert breeze.
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Service Associate Gina Theriault glanced at the time on the cash
terminal; it was 7:10, four minutes and twenty-three seconds since she last
checked. Gina didn't know why this shift seemed to be going so slowly. Slower
than any of the other five to nine shifts she had worked since starting at the
Burger Castle three months ago. Maybe it was the crush of year-end exams, or
maybe it was because after three, no, four pay checks she still had to borrow
money from her parents to make ends meet for her and her son.
Gina's headset beeped and she quickly positioned her hands over the
terminal, ready to take the customer's order.
“Welcome to Burger Castle - which items would you like to order from our
excellent menu.”
“Hello, Young Lady. We'd like three, no, make that four sky-high
cheeseburgers, two with extra onions. Three small fries, two medium diet cokes
and a chocolate milk shake.”
Gina entered the order with practiced dexterity, still listening even
when her customer turned his head away from the speaker.
“That's it?” the customer asked someone in the car. Gina heard a muffled
response then the customer turned and spoke directly into the speaker, “That's
all thank you.”
“Your order comes to fourteen ninety-five. Please drive to the first
window.”
Gina glanced at Production Associate Randy Macintosh to make sure he had
started work on the customer's four burgers. With machine-like precision, she
grabbed three small bags of fries with one hand, a number two takeout bag with
the other, set the fries into one of the bags then positioned two medium cups
on the pop dispenser, and punched the appropriate symbol on the touch pad.
While the carbon dioxide laced fluid poured from the nozzle, Gina scooped two
measured cups of shake mix into a third cup, filled it with two percent milk
and three scoops of ice cream, then shoved the cup under the mixer. Right on
schedule, Randy handed her the four completed burgers, bagged and ready to go
as she turned, capped the Diet Cokes, and began filling the second. She was
back at her window, her customer’s order in hand, in fifty-five seconds. Three
and a half seconds over the Performance Perimeters for a Level Two Fulfillment
but not bad for a Product Delivery Associate Class 4.
Gina didn’t usually pay much attention to the endless parade of humanity
that drove past her takeout window. The old guy probably caught her eye because
he kind of reminded Gina of her Uncle Sunny, but without glasses and with less
hair. Gina couldn't see the woman sitting in the passenger seat but the kid
sitting in the back was in plain sight and although her first impression was
that he was kind of cute, the tattoos were a real turn off.
Gina leaned forward, activating the motion sensor that opened the Product
Delivery Portal, then reached out with the burger bag in one hand, the drink
tray in the other.
“Four sky-highs with cheese, three small fries, two diet cokes, and one
chocolate shake,” she droned as she handed the order to the driver who passed
the bag, then the drinks in turn to the woman sitting beside him. Gina withdrew
into the stale air of her take-out station then watched as the tattooed guy
reached into the bag and snatched out a burger. He barely took the time to peel
back the foil before taking a bite so big that she doubted there was room in
his mouth to chew. The old guy eased the car into gear like he was afraid he’d
break the shift lever then drove off smoothly. Gina’s eyes had followed the car
only briefly before her headset beeped, signaling the start of yet another
‘customer delivery event’.
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It was nearly ten o’clock when Ole Grand pulled into the driveway of 2451
Arlington Avenue. The street was quiet; it always was once the kids had gone to
bed and the two city bus routes that cut through the neighborhood had both
switched from rush hour to evening schedules.
The Timmins’s modest two-bedroom bungalow and the street it sat on is
located in the geographic center of Torrance, California. Recently painted
white with brown trim, the house dates back to the early 1900s when real estate
developer Jared S. Torrance founded the community nestled in the southwest
corner of Los Angeles County. Although it rested eighty-four feet above sea
level, Torrance is sometimes referred to as the ‘South Bay’.
Incorporated in 1921, the South Bay quickly became home to secretaries
and sailors, pilots and plumbers, carpenters and cooks. Today, the population
numbers 133,000, the city streets are wider, the malls larger, but otherwise
not much had changed. True, the original wood and plaster bungalows were
starting to show their age but the same sons and daughters of those blue-collar
pioneers who settled there in the early 1900s are still raising families, still
working their jobs, still paying bills, still tending their gardens.
CHAPTER 8:
His second-floor bedroom was silent.
The air, still.
If Ian’s room was a person you could say, she was holding her breath.
A sickly yellow beam cast by the sodium-vapor street lamp was the only
light penetrating the darkness. The rectangular pattern it cast, as it has
since the city erected the new lights fifteen years ago, drapes down from Ian’s
bed onto the cowhide-brown carpet.
The single bed, perched atop six stubby legs of wood, is covered with a
badly faded sun and moon print bedspread that was likely designed for a child
no older than ten. The remaining
furniture consists of a handmade, three-drawer dresser and a recently polished
solid wood desk with matching chair and a floor to ceiling pole lamp with three
articulating ‘heads’.
The room itself was approximately twelve feet by fifteen and contained
not one speck of dirt, dust, or untidiness. Wanda had seen to that.
And, true to the promise she made to her son the first time they visited
him at Moslow, she and Earl had kept the room just as Ian had left it - neater
and cleaner – but never disturbing the six, wall mounted 8x10s of expensive
cars; a framed, second place certificate from the YMCA summer camp baseball
tournament; a rainbow colored box kite dangling from the ceiling, and two
thumb-tacked posters: one of a scowling Al Pacino – in full Scarface persona
and, on the opposite wall, a formal portrait of The King, who looked strangely
perplexed.
It was, even to the trained eye, a typical teenager's room. Nothing out
of the ordinary, nothing that would tell a parent, psychologist, or homicide
investigator that the boy who claimed this room as his own was anything but
normal. Nothing that would warn them.
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The silence and motionlessness lingered for a few moments more before
being suddenly pushed aside by the sound of three pairs of feet as they
shuffled across the concrete floored porch.
The metal-on-metal sound of the Timmins’s front door being unlocked was
different from those of Moslow. The lock that secured the front door of 2451
Arlington was, in comparison, slight, almost shy. A simple latch, on the simple
door, of a simple home.
The fabric of Ian's kite, hanging over his bed, fluttered, ever so
slightly, as the swinging front door ruffled the collective air.
Almost immediately, Ian announced, "Home again home again, jiggery
jig," with a practiced sincerity that could have easily been interpreted
as sincere.
Earl and Wanda repeated in
unison, “Jiggery jig.”
Ian’s gummy soles squeaked twice on the freshly waxed floor, Wanda’s
shoes clacked just once and Earl’s hard rubber heels thumped twice before the
foyer fell into a collective silence.
“Everything will be OK baby. You're home now.” Wanda said from
downstairs.
The staccato beat of Ian sprinting up the carpet-covered steps stopped
suddenly when his black silhouette appeared in the open door. And there he
remained, staring into the darkness as if afraid to turn on the light. As if
afraid to reconcile reality with cellblock nostalgia.
It was his mother who flipped on his room light.
“See? Just like I said. Not a thing moved since you left..”
It wasn’t until she noticed the disapproving expression on her husband’s
face as he completed his breathless climb that Wanda added, “Well, I did clean
it up a little.”
Ian stripped off his suit jacket and flung it into a corner of the room,
grazing a Jaguar hubcap propped against the wall.
Earl smiled.
“Son, you remember when we found that hubcap? You must have been five or
six ye...?”
“Yeah.”
It was only when Ian took off his dress shirt that Earl and Wanda noticed
the bruise on his back. The sight of the horrible thing turned Earl’s stomach
and sucked the breath out of Wanda's lungs. She leaned against Earl and opened
her mouth to speak but stopped when Earl gave her a gentle squeeze. Blinking to
hold back the tears, he looked at Wanda and shook his head.
Ian let his shirt fall at his feet then pulled a pair of blue jeans and a
black T-shirt from his dresser. Wanda recovered as soon as the bruise was
covered. Ian glanced about then began searching through his clothes closet.
“Mom, have you seen... never mind.”
And then he pulled a black leather vest from his closet and slipped it
on. The blue and black colored guitar, embroidered diagonally across the back
of the vest looked a lot better since Wanda took the time to clip off a dozen
or so stray threads. The matching leather cap, won in the same card game he won
the jacket, was just where he had left it, on the hook behind his closet door.
“Well, you just get comfortable dear. I know it's late but I thought we
could have dessert together. I made an apple pie - your favorite.”
Wanda waited for a response but Ian, now decked out in his civvies, was
too busy admiring his image in the mirror.
A collective smile crept over Earl and Wanda's faces as they stared at
their son. Their baby was home and they were convinced that now everything was
going to be all right.
After a few moments, Earl gave Wanda’s hand a squeeze then led her down
the hall toward the stairs.
Ian didn’t notice his parents leave. He was too busy admiring himself in
the mirror. But not too busy to notice The King staring at him, so with one
sweeping motion, Ian ripped the poster of The King off the wall and allowed it
to drift, face down, to the floor.
Ian then turned back toward the mirror and smiled at his reflection.
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Wanda was in the kitchen, preparing to serve up the apple pie when Ian
raced past the open door.
“Just going to say hi to Leonus.”
“Don’t be long. Desserts ready,” she barely managed to say before Ian
slammed the front door closed behind him.
“Where’s Ian gone?”
“Across the street to the Derby’s.”
“Oh. OK.”
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Leonus was kicking Ian’s butt at Warlord. Not surprising, inmates didn’t
have access to video games so over the past four years Ian had no opportunity
to keep up his gaming skills. Dodging homemade knives and negotiating the
intricacies of prison politics weren’t skills that were transferable to the
world of evil Kros warlords or the Valiant Circle of Monos Knights that fought
for domination of the planet Ta.
Ian and Leonus were sitting on the floor of his bedroom when Leonus’s
mother Alice Derby walked in carrying a stack of freshly laundered clothes.
“Ian!”
“Hello, Mrs. Derby. Good to see you.”
“I didn’t know you were here.”
“I knocked on the back door and Leonus let me in. I know it’s kinda late.
Hope you don’t mind. Leonus and I were just playi..”
“No, no, that’s fine. You just kind of startled me. When did you…? I mean
I didn’t know you were getting... home.
“Got sprung today. Mom and Dad drove me home not more than an hour ago.
By the way, I like what you done with your hair.”
“Thank you, Ian,” Alice managed to reply in what she hoped was a normal,
or at least neutral tone.
“Time to get cleaned up for bed dear,” she said to her son in a bright
tone.
“Ah. Mom!”
“You should always obey your mother and father Leo. They know what’s
best,” Ian said with the authority of an ancient sage.
Alice’s heart ricocheted off the inside of her chest when Ian suddenly
leaped to his feet then smiled that smile of his.
“I have to get going too. Well, good night Mrs. Derby. I can let myself
out. See ya Leo. ”
Alice’s mind raced as she followed Ian at a cautious distance, watching
him closely as the Timmins’s boy slinked down the stairs then moved silently
through their kitchen, and out their back door.
It wasn’t until the door has shut behind him that she allowed her body to
shiver.
Immediately she locked the back door, then checked that it was truly
locked, then checked it again.
CHAPTER 9:
The chrome-legged kitchen table, with its snow-white linoleum top and
chrome ribbon edge, was, judging by the latest home decorating magazines, very
retro and stylish. But, Earl and Wanda Timmins were unaware of the table’s
fashionable status, then or thirty years ago when they got it as a wedding
present. Aside from replacing the top once, after Wanda absentmindedly scorched
it with a pot, the table had served them well and long ago attained the status
of ‘one of the family’. It was at this table that the Timmins took their
Thursday evening dessert. A very special dessert. The first one they had had
together in more years than they cared to remember.
Earl and Wanda sat, where they always had, at opposite ends of the table
with Ian sitting between them on the wall side. This seating arrangement
originated when Ian was old enough to sit up. He was in a high chair back then,
also a wedding present.
Sitting atop the gleaming table were three place settings perched on three
of the six fiberboard placemats from the Old Masters Collection. Ian had Mona
Lisa, Earl, the van Gogh landscape, and Wanda’s was a lovely fall painting by
Tom Thomson, not really one of ‘the Masters’ she was told by the sales clerk at
Sears and Roebuck, but that was the very reason the repackaged set of six had
been marked down. Master or not, she liked Mr. Thomson's painting, entitled
Jack Pine. For some reason, the stark landscape, punctuated by one lone tree,
reminded her of Christmas, her favorite time of the year.
Ian, sitting hunched over his plate, as an animal would at feeding time,
had nearly finished his pie while Earl and Wanda just sat there, their food
untouched, alternating between smiling at each other and staring at their son.
Ian spoke with a mouth full of pie.
“Soon as I get 'nough saved up I'm gonna get my own apartment, maybe out
near the Marina.”
Wanda shot a quick glance at Earl who was busy separating his slice of
pie into three sections: apple, crust, and syrup, only because the latter two
he was forbidden to eat.
“Honey. Everything out there is very expensive. You're welcome to stay
with us as long as you want.”
Earl added matter-of-factly, without taking his eyes off his task, “Son.
We're here to help whatever and whichever way we can.”
“I can take care of myself.”
A silence hung in the air while Ian finished wolfing down the last bites
of his pie and Earl completed the deconstruction of his desert.
Earl had a thought.
“Remember how much fun we used to have fishing, son? Think you'd like to
go out Saturday morning? I’ve still got your old rod and reel.”
“That's a grand idea,” Wanda added.
Ian glanced up at his father then at his mother, then, using his fork,
toyed with the crumbs in his plate.
“Sure Dad.”
Earl beamed, shoved a piece of piecrust into this mouth, then froze when
he noticed Wanda's disapproving scowl.
“Well, it’s lights out for me,” Ian said then pushed back his chair and
stood, “Thanks, Mom.”
Then he walked out, leaving his plate and the half-empty glass of milk on
the table.
Wanda followed Ian out of the kitchen while Earl, still sitting at the
table, waited until he was sure that she was gone then closed his eyes and
chewed his mouthful of pie crust with blissful rebellion.
Earl then cleared the table and set the dishes in the sink.
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Wanda arrived at Ian’s door to find him lying face up, hands behind his
head and staring at the ceiling. Earl arrived moments later.
“Tomorrow's a big day. Told your parole officer… Oh, I booked time off
next Friday morning to drive you for your first weekly session… anyway, I told
him that I'd take you to work and introduce you to my boss. Name’s Hector
Hernandez, but he prefers Nan. Anyway, Nan said he could use another laborer
around the site for, you know, cleaning up and stuff. Pay's not much, but it's
an honest living. Found you a dandy pair of steel-toed boots at Goodwill.
Nearly new. Well, goodnight son. Good to have you home again.”
Ian answered while continuing to stare at nothing in particular on the
ceiling.
“'Night Dad.”
“Goodnight Baby.”
“Goodnight Mom.”
Earl had already turned and was now making his way down the hallway when
Wanda saw through Ian’s bedroom window the front door of the Derby home jerk
open. Almost immediately, Alice hurried out, dragging a protesting Leonus down
the walkway of their home to the driveway where their car sat idling, white
cotton clouds of warm air shooting from the exhaust pipe.
Moving with less urgency, Carl, her husband, stepped through the front
door soon after his wife. He was carrying two large suitcases, which he set
into the trunk of his wife’s car.
Carl barely had time to kiss his wife goodbye through the driver’s side
window before she began backing down the driveway toward the stre…
“Mom? You OK?”
Wanda shifted her gaze immediately, smiled broadly at Ian then shot a
quick glance to the side to make sure that Earl was out of hearing range before
struggling to compose what she now needed to say.
Wanda had practiced various versions of this speech a million times over
the past four years. There was a short version, a medium version, and a long
version, which she had pretty well ruled out as being, well, too long. She used
to practice the speech in front of the mirror. That's how her friend Sarah
Stewart honed her speeches to the Torrance High School Debating Society, which
Wanda never belonged to, but it must have worked for Sarah because she was
always winning some prize or another.
Over the past two years or so, Wanda practiced her speech to Ian in the
morning after Earl had left for work and before she headed out to do her Meals
on Wheels. She didn't practice every morning of course. Maybe once or twice a
month at the beginning, then once every couple of months. Since they found out
that Ian might be granted parole, she had been practicing just about every
other day. But despite all her preparation, she really didn't know where or how
to begin.
In fact, she had all but given up on her speech and was about to leave
when Ian broke the silence.
“Mom, can you get the light and close the door. Thanks.”
“Baby,” she said then paused, “ ‘Member you promised not to hurt anybody
ever again? 'Member you promised?”
Ian’s smile lit up his face like a hundred-watt bulb, “No problem, Mom.
I’m a new man. That old Ian is way behind me now. Way behind.”
“And you should talk more Baby. Your father and I always have time for
you to tell us what’s going on in your life.”
“That’s exactly what the shrink said, and yure right. I need to vocalize,
not internalize, my ‘emotional panorama’. I’m sorry about what happened to that
unfortunate homeless man and I’m sorry about all the pain and suffering I
caused you and Dad, but that’s behind me. Today is the first day of the rest of
my life.”
“Just don’t forget that we love you and care about you. Oh, and you won’t
forget what day it is this Sunday?”
“How could I forget Mom?”
Wanda smiled, maybe it was just her imagination but something about Ian
was different, older maybe, wiser maybe, but he was definitely a different
young man than the one who did that terrible thi…. Anyway, she interrupted
herself, that is all behind them now, and she closed his door, certain that
things would be different.
In her son's words, “today is the first day of the rest of their lives.”
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